Road to You

I knew there was nothing but pain
if I traveled down this road.
Yet I let curiosity get the
better of my sensibility.
I inched closer and closer,
not realizing there was an icy ledge.
Then I slipped down that slope so fast,
I become completely engulfed in you.
I tried to throw the breaks.
I tried to gain control.
In the end, I found there was no hope.
You had my full attention, my interest,
and could easily have my heart.
The only thing I've managed to
keep safe inside of me so far.
But today I noticed something
and now I realize, there are
rocks at the bottom. And I
will not survive.
I will come out damaged, broken
beyond repair.
With little more than your name
on my dying breath.
In truth, I am almost glad
I allowed myself near you.
Though confusion ensued,
I could be myself when we were together.
And maybe, just maybe, I didn't want to
put on the breaks. Maybe I didn't want to
skid to a stop.
Maybe I was hoping you were at the bottom
instead of a whole field of rocks.
But alas, I was wrong.
You think I would have learned.
The world never turns
out like you want it to.
I knew there was nothing but pain
If I traveled down this road.
Yet I let curiosity get the
best of me.
My own stupid fault.
Now I'm lost on this
road of you.